Monday, December 28, 2009

Update

We had a lovely quiet Christmas. We hope that all of you did too. I am excited because I finally received a book that I had ordered a long time ago. It is called A Gospel Primer for Christians. It is excellent. The bit of dying to self that I couldn't find is in this. So...to finish up that post on dying to myself. Here it is....

All Things Crucified

The gospel is not simply the story of "Christ, and Him crucified"; it is also the story of my own crucifixion. For the Bible tells me that I, too, was crucified on Christ's cross. My old self was slain there, and my love affair with the world was crucified there too. The cross is also the place where I crucify my flesh and all my sinful desires. Truly, Christ's death and my death are so intertwined as to be inseparable.
God is committed to my dying every day, and He calls me to that same commitment. He insists that every hour be my dying hour, and He wants my death on the cross to be a central part of my own life story as is Christ's death to the gospel story. "Let this same attitude be in you," He says,"which was also in Christ Jesus...who became obedient unto death, even unto death on a cross."
Crucifixion hurts. In fact, its heart-wrenching brutality can numb the senses. It is a gasping and bloody affair, and there is nothing nice or pretty, or easy about it. It is not merely death, but excruciating death.
Nevertheless, I must set my face like a flint toward the cross and embrace this crucifixion in everything I do. I should expect every day to encounter circumstantial evidence of God's commitment to my dying; and I must seize upon every God-given opportunity to be conformed more fully to Christ's death, no matter tha pain involved.
When my flesh yearns for some prohibited thing, I must die.
When called to do something I don't want to do, I must die.
When I wish to be selfish and serve no one, I must die.
When shattered by hardship that I despise, I must die.
When wanting to cling to wrongs done against me, I must die.
When enticed by allurements fo the world, I must die.
When wishing to keep besetting sins secret, I must die.
When wants that are borderline needs are left unmet, I must die.
When dreams that are good seem shoved aside, I must die.

"Not My will, but Yours be done," Christ trustingly prayed on the eve of His crucifixion; and preaching His story to myself each day puts me in a frame of mind to trust God and embrace the cross of my own dying also.


This convicts me on so many levels. It isn't about us at all, other than us dying to ourselves and doing what God wants, which is very often the opposite of what we want. I highly recommend this book it is a total of 97 pages that are well worth reading again and again in addition to your devotions.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Pearl Christmas Smith

Yes, this mother has officially lost her marbles. I got the family a puppy for Christmas. She is a miniature schnauzer and is just to cute! Gabe said he wanted to name her Pearl and we all liked that name. So Toby told Julie she could pick her middle name. She chose Christmas. Noah calls her Pearl Smith. It is precious! Julie is in love with her! She is probably the happiest of all the kids. Although, Dad is pretty happy about it as well. :) She is doing very well on potty-training, better than my baby. :)
She follows me around alot and gives me cute puppy looks. I guess we will keep her. I do kinda like her, which for any of you who know me know, is not typical Cassie. Toby did try to let her sleep on our bed at night and I drew the line there. Nope!! I got her a nice crate and she has a comfy blanket in there. See Dad, I still am in here somewhere. :D

Isn't it wonderful that God created animals and we get to enjoy them!

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Christmas....

I am always amazed at how God pounds things into you. He has been pounding what Christmas is about this year. I have always known in my head and at times kinda in my heart, but this year He is really going at it. It all started with Children's Church, talking with the kids about what Christmas is about. I am amazed at how teaching, teaches you as well. This is what we came up with....

God-gave His only Son

Jesus-gave up His seat in Heaven
power
He basically gave up everything

Mary- gave up her reputation
gave up her home (they had to move to Egypt)

Joseph- gave up his reputation
gave up his home
most likely his decision to keep Mary had effects on who wanted him to work for them

What they got

God- to see His Son die a horrible death
to turn away from His only Son, because of all of our sin that was Him

Jesus- died a death that He didn't deserve

Mary- Got a Saviour

Joseph- Got a Saviour

This are just some of the things we talked about. I realized that Mary and Joseph didn't realize what they were getting exactly. They did it, because God told them to.

From the looks of these things....Christmas is about giving.

Yes, I know that everybody says that, but who really applies it. It seems like all the kids have lists of what they want to get. Parents worry and talk about what they are getting their kids. When do you see us making lists of ways we can give. Our time, our gifts, our money, whatever is needed. As I asked the kids what they wanted for Christmas they could immediately give me and answer. When I asked what they were giving, I got umms and ahhhs. As this is going on I realize that I have been relaxed on this subject as well, because I am selfish and I want to get stuff too. Wow...how humbling to think of what Christ....God.....gave up at Christmas.
He submitted himself to be inside a human womb, be born a helpless baby that had to depend on the humans He had made. He submitted himself to imperfect human parents and honored and respected them. He gave up the glory of being God and was what, many I am sure, considered a bastard child.

So as I have all of this on my mind, the Lord sends one my way that I am supposed to help. This person has made some poor choices that have led to a very hard life. I got a call that they needed a ride. I was headed that way. I got nervous about helping because this person resides in a rougher neighorhood than I live in. As I was thinking maybe that was the Lord trying to tell me not to go, I realized that Satan can use fear to deter you from doing what you are supposed to be doing. So I told the Lord I trusted Him to protect me and headed out. All the way there I said things like...if she doesn't answer her phone by the time I get there I won't stop, that will be my sign that I am not supposed to help her. Those kinds of things...you know. God made everything "happen" so before to long I was outside this house. The person came out and is mad at everyone. I drive us where we are headed. The time we are at the store the Lord is telling me what I need to do. In my head, there is a conversation going on with myself. As this conversation is taking place I realize I am debating on whether she deserves it. I was instantly ashamed. Who am I kidding? Is that the treatment God gives me? If I got what I deserved I would be heading to hell. So, I do what God is telling me to do.
After I drop her off I realize that I have fallen into the holier than thou group. I am so thankful that God speaks to me and helps me realize that I am no better than this person. I just have God, He is what is different. Even people who make poor choices are God's creations, He died for them too. Who am I to say they don't deserve everything I have and more. Everything I have is from God, so I better be doing with it what He wants. I don't mean to be preachy, this has taken hold of my heart. The more I think about it the more I realize I let the world tell me how to do Christmas. Yes, I give the normal gifts, but when do I really give...sacrificially like Christ did. Do I give up things I want to help others? Do I give to only those who I think deserve it? I am ashamed when I realize how selfish and self-righteous I have been. I don't know if this just seems like alot of babble, but I felt like I needed to put it up here.

We are to be like Christ and He gave and still gives. I am going to try to be like Christ and give what I can to help people, whether it be clothes, food, an ear to listen, a set of hands to help....I thank the Lord for using this season to show me how to be more like Him.